i cant even remember when i last wrote....life has been so damn hectic these days.
take it on the positive side. they sent me everywhere for the 'special assignment. at least i get to see places. i get to fly and travel to places that many had never been.
changes been made. they decide i am no use to them anymore. i am living in a world with a lot of dramas, a lot of fake smile, a lot of buried hatred and envy towards each other. there is no one that can be trusted.
only God knows how much i wanted out. i want to walk out and prove i am worth it somewhere.
and God knows how much it suffocates me.....but i can only breathe when i start to tell myself, God is Great.
i love my job. but i dont like it here, at least not anymore.
but while i am still around (which i hope not for long), i want to give all i can, with sincerity, with hopes that people would notice me....while i am still here.
and each day that i live, the 10 hours of my daily live that i spent in that horrible world, not a single time that i forgot about him. and another 8 hours i spent doing things when i am awake, i always think of how life would be if he is around me. and now i am wishing i had more time with him when i was younger.
why cant i be the one? stupid question.....
God knows i am missing him. dearly, deeply.
work sucks, love life sucks, what else? owh, i just found out, i am an idiot. i trust people easily.
life has been unkind. all the things, i just wanna say, i am still alive. Praise Allah for all the years i have.......
changes been made. they decide i am no use to them anymore. i am living in a world with a lot of dramas, a lot of fake smile, a lot of buried hatred and envy towards each other. there is no one that can be trusted.
only God knows how much i wanted out. i want to walk out and prove i am worth it somewhere.
and God knows how much it suffocates me.....but i can only breathe when i start to tell myself, God is Great.
i love my job. but i dont like it here, at least not anymore.
but while i am still around (which i hope not for long), i want to give all i can, with sincerity, with hopes that people would notice me....while i am still here.
and each day that i live, the 10 hours of my daily live that i spent in that horrible world, not a single time that i forgot about him. and another 8 hours i spent doing things when i am awake, i always think of how life would be if he is around me. and now i am wishing i had more time with him when i was younger.
why cant i be the one? stupid question.....
God knows i am missing him. dearly, deeply.
work sucks, love life sucks, what else? owh, i just found out, i am an idiot. i trust people easily.
life has been unkind. all the things, i just wanna say, i am still alive. Praise Allah for all the years i have.......
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